I wanted to hold off before I posted on your thread yesterday Diane.
First off you are not being selfish! But you do raise a good point! Before everyone starts jumping on my back, let me explain...
From my own experience I know that for those of us who wear our hearts on our sleeve, we do pass our insecurities on to our children.
There are people out there who never argue, cry, show frustration or shout etc. etc. in front of their kids and I applaud them I really do, because I can't. It takes a lot for me to hide my emotions (as anyone who knows me can tell you) and I hate that fact. Just yesterday I was in a heap on the floor in floods of tears, all of which my kids heard or saw. What kind of a crap mother does that make me?! I too am battling anxiety and depression and in hind site, wish I'd got myself sorted before having children of my own.
HOWEVER....I think your situation is slightly different as a lot of your up and down moods this year have been on the back of ttc! You have had a particularly tense few months recently and I'm sure your self esteem has taken a battering. Thankfully though you have a supportive husband and that makes a world of difference.
I agree with so much of what's been said by the other ladies. Our mind is our own worst enemy and yet it's the key to our own happiness!!
I personally think you'd make a brilliant Mummy and hope that one day very soon you will be x x x