tital says ita ll.
me and hubby havnt really goton for years fighting crap nothinkg incommo ect i often threaten to leave but he pormmises to change then threatens my mental state saying i cant have kids . he knows full well i dont have the guts to risk it and go .
today this has risn again because we are going to my oldest step daughters school for parent introduction this of for next year school . anyway have to bethere for 6 so mum has all the kdis so just me and dan i suggested earlier on that maybe we should go for meal as being without 5 is reare . he didnt want to waste the money .and casue eh has a tiny puke mark on his shirt HAS to go all teh way home to change . so marched off home i finaly got him he is upstirs not talking app i am just *$%£ mental.

these tablets have slowed me down so i am not so hyper but maybe thats bad when i was hyper and very bubby talkative i could hide the true feelings i guess but know im calmer i realise i am with him becasue of threats i wont get kids . and the fact he has belittled me so much . ok he does all house work so lucky in thart way but tbh i would rather a nice carimng romantic messy bloke then him .
so what do i do i mean we rent the house together so if was to leave council wont help would have no where to go . and what about the others will be spliting family up ...

no doubt he will talk me round again . but if not can anyone shed light on how u seperate the love cause he is my kids dad and care . other my happyness whats fare on kids ??
sorry depressing post just sooo lost right now .
had meeting with pre school today about lucy as i having ussies instead of asking how it went he wanted to know some crap about somthink else . yesterday after my app he didnt ask how i was . all my posts on fb about how sad i am ect he never once answers them . just pretends its all ok . he is in denial but thinks he is bloody god . i mean our sex life embarrassed to say was iw ould have sex if i got money from him lol no i wouldnt sleep with him for any money . ??

hummmmmmmm god really hates me today.

Really sorry you're feeling like this hun, is there any way you can get your OH to go to Relate with you or do you think its too late???

As for the kids, he can't take them away from you anymore than you can take them away from him, you are both their parents and they need you both. Plus they would much rather have a happy mum than be all together and have a miserable mum, wouldn't they. xx

yeah . he wont go to relate as he wont talk so no point to him its just all my fault .

Aww hun I know how you feel, me and Rob went through the same problem when I was PG with Harry, and we actually had a break for 6 weeks and it gave us the chance to see what we really wanted, which was to be a family as we loved eachother. But if you only love your OH as the father to your babies then I don't think you should be doing it to yourself xx

no i know i am so unhappy at mo he has just called me a stupid little biatch so shouting at him earlier . and i never had a meeting just had to fill forms in . im like wtf

calling you names like that is abuse !! and no woman should have to put up with it hun ! ,,, i cant recall your childrens ages but you will find that they will start talking to you the way theri father does ( if they witness it ) trust me , it is not nice !

it took everything i had to upsticks and leave my ex i left all my friends and all my family but now my children are happier than they have ever been and i now have an OH who loves me and wouldnt dream of being nasty to me and we have our gorgeous daughter

i hope you find the strength to do what you want to do hun x x x

awww thinking of you. you must do what your heart tells you. Find out from your local council what the waiting list is like. You would be entitled to Housing Benefit and council tax benefit i expect. If its getting you down you must be strong and dont put up with it for the kids sake because believe me it WILL affect them negatively. If your hearts not it in anymore you must do whats right. Be strong and you will be glad in years to come that you got out and you will meet someone who you deserve and who dserves you xx