tital says ita ll.
me and hubby havnt really goton for years fighting crap nothinkg incommo ect i often threaten to leave but he pormmises to change then threatens my mental state saying i cant have kids . he knows full well i dont have the guts to risk it and go .
today this has risn again because we are going to my oldest step daughters school for parent introduction this of for next year school . anyway have to bethere for 6 so mum has all the kdis so just me and dan i suggested earlier on that maybe we should go for meal as being without 5 is reare . he didnt want to waste the money .and casue eh has a tiny puke mark on his shirt HAS to go all teh way home to change . so marched off home i finaly got him he is upstirs not talking app i am just *$%£ mental.
these tablets have slowed me down so i am not so hyper but maybe thats bad when i was hyper and very bubby talkative i could hide the true feelings i guess but know im calmer i realise i am with him becasue of threats i wont get kids . and the fact he has belittled me so much . ok he does all house work so lucky in thart way but tbh i would rather a nice carimng romantic messy bloke then him .
so what do i do i mean we rent the house together so if was to leave council wont help would have no where to go . and what about the others will be spliting family up ...
no doubt he will talk me round again . but if not can anyone shed light on how u seperate the love cause he is my kids dad and care . other my happyness whats fare on kids ??
sorry depressing post just sooo lost right now .
had meeting with pre school today about lucy as i having ussies instead of asking how it went he wanted to know some crap about somthink else . yesterday after my app he didnt ask how i was . all my posts on fb about how sad i am ect he never once answers them . just pretends its all ok . he is in denial but thinks he is bloody god . i mean our sex life embarrassed to say was iw ould have sex if i got money from him lol no i wouldnt sleep with him for any money . ??
hummmmmmmm god really hates me today.