I had a nightmare this morning that Ollie passed away in his sleep
I spent the whole nightmare crying whilst walking around a shop after getting a tattoo with his name on it. I woke up and lay there for a minute thinking wtf!! and then started crying cos I felt so shocked!
I then thought that I really need to go check on Ollie but I didn't want to at the same time but finally got the balls to go and poke him, huge sigh of relief as he squirmed from me touching him. Had to go for a fag then as I was still in shock from it all. Have thought about it alllll day and then watched Eastenders
How bizarre! Never want a nightmare like that again
For all you strong ladies out there that have lost children, I'm so sorry you have had to go through that
I only lost mine in a dream but I have been close to tears all day thinking about it.
to you all xxxxxx
