Om February it will have been 10 years since my mum killed herself and I am on a bit of a downer.
Sorry for the depressing post but I miss her everyday and I wish she could have met Flick as I see a lot of my mum in her xxxx

Am I wrong for being angry that whenever I am in need of a hug or I am upset that I need my mum and she left me??
I am only 23 and I need my mum. I have had counselling and everything since she died and I still can't get over it.

Any advice on how I stop feeling like this???
I love my MIL and my old foster mum to pieces but they are not my mum and I feel guilty for wishing she was stilll here xxxx
WTF is wrong with me? Why can't I get over this??
It's not like she even cared about me, she dumped me into care and chose her abusive husband over me and my brother and sister xxxx

I just want my mum. xxxx

Sorry for the downer xxx

Honey no matter what your mum has done to you or hasnt done for you, she is still your mum and you will always need/want her. Its perfectly noramel to feel like that.
It must be so hard witht he fact your mum killed herself hun.

Dont really have any advice just a hug ((())) xxx

Oh Emz Of course you want your Mum. There is NOTHING wrong with you at all! You're probably feeling her loss so much more now you have Flick as you know how you feel being a Mummy. Why should you feel guilty for wishing your Mum was still around? It's so unfair that she left you at such a young age. Have a good cry and give Flick a massive cuddle when she wakes up. Big ((((((((hugs))))))))) xxxxxxxxxxx

awwww hun, how awful, i can imagine you were devastated and still feel that raw pain. i really dont know what to say. i dont think you will ever get over it, i just think you learn to live with it. So sorry that you lost her so young. sending you love and hugs xxx

Oh god huney.....not that it will make you feel any better but im crying along with you! Your post touched me so much!!

Of course your gonna want her here, even if it would be to shout at her.....I want my dad every single minute of every day!!

I cant say anything to help, other than I feel your pain intensely xxx

Oh hun I don't really have any advice but I don't think you'll ever get over it, you'll learn to live with it but she's still your mum so your always going to feel some pain xxxxx

i just wanna give u a hug xx

Can't think of anything other than what ladies gave said already ... Are you close to your bro and sis? Do they still have same feelings?? ((((hugs))))

Doesn't matter if she wasnt 'the perfect mum' she was still your mum and its no surprise yo still feel a deep need for her whenever the world kicks you in the bum. Dont ever feel wrong for feeling like that but im glad you have your foster mum to turn to and your MIL. And us of course, if you ever need a virtual hug i got one right here xxx

I can only reiterate what the other ladies have already said. Please don't feel guilty, we all need our mums at times, no matter what they are like, so it's no wonder you are feeling down over it all.

(((((hugs)))))

Xx

I wanna echo what the others have said. However she was she was still your mum and ofcourse ur going to miss her and especially now ur a mum yourselve xx
Must be so hard for you xx
Sending you lotsa hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

You have NOTHING to feel guilty for!!

No matter what has happened it is only natural to yearn for your mum through the good times and the bad. I'm sure if she could hold you tight right now, she would!

I'm so very sorry she left you and made some bad choices when she was here. But please remember none of it was your fault and in no way shape or form should you feel guilty for the emotions you still feel. I can't imagine the pain this has caused you nor how you live with something like this. But in your dark times remember the beautiful little family you have and the pleasure and joy they bring you. Remember the people who are still here and who love you and enjoy all that you have because your deserve all of it after the shite you've been through!

Sending you lots of hugs in this difficult time x x x x x