but like that's ever gonna happen!!

i swear my life is one big drama after another..

a couple of weeks ago i found out my dad was found guilty of having indecent images of kids on his puter back in '04

well when i was down south this weekend he was taken into hospital, looked like a stroke as he had loss of feeling in his right side, his whole side of his face drooped...well that was bad, but after a ct scan it's been announced, he has a brain tumour! no idea how bad yet but he's having tests today and i'm waiting to be updated

i should feel upset, this is my dad afterall, but i feel as much as i would do if it was a stranger telling me he has cancer...dunno if the stuff from two weeks back has killed any feelings i had for him, or i'm just emotionally dead in general

oh well...there is my drama of the week

xx

Wow kenty, maybe it's just you've not processed the info just yet?

We all know your not emotionally dead! Far From it, but you have your reasons not to have an emotional reaction to your dad. Maybe your feelings are overridden by what you found out a few weeks back. If they are that's fine!

As clique as it sounds a brain tumour has such varied degrees of seriousness, I hope things work out for your dad and he makes a full recovery x

Jesus Kenty! How much more do you have to go thru hun? It's time you Sam and the kids get the eff away and move over here! Run away from all the crap! Thinking of you all hun. xxx

I can't say I am surprised that you have no feelings for this news...its bound to make you numb towards him after what he did

Don't beat yourself up about it, I can't see anyone blaming you at all x

kell, it's sunk in, i know what he's fighting, one of our best friends died of brain cancer about 3months back but i still feel nothing

i swear jen, my life is like a f*cking soap opera and i'm so very very tired of it...i wish i could just come back online and say 'god, that was one boring trip!!'

just had a call and my brothers are now pulling out of coming up for the kids birthday party on saturday...out of 4 brothers, only one isn't using this as their excuse to pull out...is it weird that im more upset over them pulling out than kevin possibly dying

I can totally understand why u feel nothing that doesnt make you have no emotiion.

I agree with the others hun, you are far from emotionless.
Either way we are always on the other end of a lappy if you need to unload

God Kenty hun, you are not emotionally dead hun by any means. I think it is probably the last few weeks revelations have had some impact on your feelings for you dad. Thinking of you hun

Awww hun, nobody can blame you for not feeling anything.

You really are dealt a crappy hand of cards and you deal with it so well xxx

I don't know what to say hun but your defo not emotionally dead, we all know how much you love your babies and Sam x

hun, its not surprising the person you thought was your dad died when you were told the news a couple of weeks ago.

but i am sending a hug and a cuppa and a cake, (always makes me feel better no matter what)

here's some dribbly kisses from Flick too

thinking of you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

thanks girls!

not gonna find out until tomorrow if it's operable or not so just a waiting game as usual

crikey you dont have much luck hun!!

hope your ok x