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Hey all
Been thinking on this post all day and had to do it asap as now I am home and settled I have some important things i wanted to say to my lovely Banda Pandas.
So im going to start with my apology. I cant have been easy to be around the last few months. Pregnancy is truly as bad for my mental health as my physical and i am not a huge fan of pregnant me. You ladies have put up with my ranting, my moaning and my mood swings with patience, good will and affection and I think you are amazing. Im sorry for being a grumpy hormonal prego for so long.
And now for my thanks. I do have some particularly special ones but first of all i want to send a huge thank you to every single one of you very special ladies. You make me smile when im down, you make me see sense when im irrational, you make me laugh when im ready to cry. You occupy my mind when im bored, you send me love and affection when i probably dont deserve it cos im being a grouch, each and every one of you occupies a very special place in my heart and i am so proud to be a Banda Panda as to me it means being a part of one of the most special commuities i have ever encountered.For people i have never met some of you know me more intimately than friends i see regularly and none of you judge me for any of it.
And id like to include 3 very special ladies for awards for dedication above and beyond the call of duty - Jen, Jo and Suse. I honestly believe you three ladies are the sole reason i didnt spend my last 3 months in a padded cell, with a strait jacket with a built in bump and nothing but a crayola crayon for drawing on the walls for company. Jen, my canadian big sis you are the most generous soul i have ever met, you care about people honestly and without reservation and are a truly beuatiful person. Without our nightly chats i might have been a complete basket case by the end. And Jo and Suse my daily text buddies your SMS's every morning set me up for the day. Even when i know you are both exhausted and fed up you take the time to ask after me and talk when im fed up, you are both such wonderful caring ladies and so much fun to be around and im priveleged to count you as my friends. Thanks for keeping me on track.
Please dont think im excluding anyone as i could list names all night-Gill, Meg, Tiggs, Olliesmammy, Mara etc you are all in there too as are the rest of you wonderful forum girls but i couldnt let these 3 special ladies go unoticed for all they have done for me.
I woke up this morning and finally felt like me again. Im tired and im sore but i am so happy and content. I feel like my life has been very blessed. Karma has rewarded me for two terrible pregnancies with two amazing children. My beautiful wonderful girls make my life complete. I have an amazing little newborn who has gone 8/9 hours with only one wake for a feed 2 nights out of the last 3 and is quite possible the most chilled content baby ive ever met-if she didnt squeak for food every now and again i wouldnt know she was there. Lying in bed this morning just watching her watching me made me so happy. And my gorgeous toddler makes me laugh so hard i could bust my stitches right now, shes happy and clever and affectionate and is such a brilliant big sister, watching her holding Awen and tell her she uffs her makes my heart want to burst with love and pride. Some times life is unfair as i know we all know right now but sometimes its also beautiful and those moments should be acknowledged too
So thanks ladies for getting me past the last few months and im back to me now-beware. Which also means the sappy crap above is never to be mentioned again. Love you f*ckers xxx
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