FFS what am i supposed to be like?????? I'm dealing with all of this sh*t the best that i can. I'm in a horrible angry mood today and just wanna take everyones head off. I could just shout scream jump up and down and have a huge tantrum.

In a month i've had to deal with a break-up, council red tape, general slowness and the death of my best friend. I have so many emotions churning through me all at once and it doesn't help that i'm being expected to act like everythings back to normal and nothing ever happened.

I've had no help from him with watching Mia as he's been working every weekend so i've pretty much watched her 24/7 for 4 nearly 5 weeks.

I'm trying my god damn hardest and i can't do anymore than that!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's all getting a bit too much for me.

Forgive the rant

Dee
x

Hun, being alone is never easy, I list my mom when rich was 5 months and I don't think I properly grieved for till russ came along 6 years later, I just didn't have the time.

Take each day as they come, do what you need to do but also take time to listen to how you feel.
Also ignore him, he's not going to help and would probably make things worse.

Sending s huge hug,

Oh Dee hun, you're doing so bloody well. You had a hideous past month or two and it's bound to take it's toll. It's awful when someone's passed away and the world just carries on as normal. I hate to say it but that feeling doesn't go away quickly but you know we're all here for you.

I wish I could give you some practical help, mainly in the form of smacking your ex one! What an absolute tosser! He knows your pregnant and all that's happened recently, the least he could do is look after his own daughter for a couple of hours the knob!

Lots of love to you xxxxxxxxxxx

I wish I could make it better for you x

If i wasn't pregnant i'd be getting so blind drunk tonight. I'm trying to cope with it all but there are days it all just hits me at once. x

aww dee i hope you are ok xx

you have had alot to deal with recently so dont let anyone tell you other wise and you can def have a good rant if you want lol xx

for you

for your ex

You rant away hun we are listening. If I was nearer I would take Mia for a few hours for you so you could have some me time.

thanks. I'm really grumpy today and snappy. I want to scream x

Awww hunni, you have hard an awful time lately.

When are you moving? Any news on that?

Is there anybody that can help you out with Mia when you do move?

You sound like you really need a little break so that you can start to deal with everything that has been happening in your life.

We are here if you need to shout xx

Dee just wanted to send you xx

wanna come round ? you can punch me scream at me but i want me head

Dee

You are doing amazingly well hun. You have had to deal with so much the last month or two you have every right to be snappy and angry with the world. I wish I was closer so I could help you out a bit with Mia or just give you a

awwww hun, sending you love and hugs xxx

Big hugs Dee, I really feel for you. You would be having a hard enough time with just one of all those things happening right now. As has already been said, you are doing really well in difficult circumstances and you're totally entitled to be pi$$€d off with everything and have a good rant as often as you like. That's what your banda pandas are here for!
I'd be feeling proper sorry for myself in your shoes, you're a stronger woman than me now don't you forget it xxx

thank u all. I made him take me and mia out for the rest of the afternoon and for dinner. We went for a looooong drive and a meal. Not long home. It was nice to get out into the country for some fresh air. I'm watchin total wipeout. The big balls made me smile x

I Like Big Balls! They always make me smile lol! xx

dee just text me when you want to rant! am here to listen.

also I know you dont want to hear this but matt is so charming. I really hope he can make it up to you because you both seem like you would make an amazing couple and if he just started treating you properly you could both be so happy.

also I will have mia. if she would let me. she is just gorgeous. Id have her for a week

Lol steph i was wondering what you thought of him. We were good together when it was good. It's a pity it all went south. x

So sorry too hear about laura dee. Hope things start looking up for you soon and a big congrats on the pregnancy

Thanks gem x