First topic message reminder :well if you ladies havent seen already on fb me and the bf have split up...if you dont like disgusting things i woulnt read any furthur. please be honest wth me.
basically this morning, i was changin benjy in his nursery (bathroom is directally opposite) and OH was in bath.
i went in to ask him something (not that i can remember what now)
walked in and he was butt naked at the sink, with a stiffy!!
he quickly grabbed the tub we use to wash hair and swilled the sink...i aked him what he was doing, and he said "just swillin the hairs down the sink!" i knew fine wel he'd been jacking off!!! right opposite the room me and his son where in!! i know men be men, but howay theresa time and place ffs!!
anyways i asked him and he blatantly denied it even tho there was (TMI...so sorry!!) jizz in the sink!!! eurgh!!!!
i then asked him why he was all flushed and he said he always gets a nob on when hes had a bath and always get ht n flustered when too...
so anyway i kept bothering him, he told me i was craaazy and that i was seeing 2+2=5 blah blah blah, and he tried to blame it on my PND!!!
then i gave him an ultimatum!!! "lie and he leaves....(as i KNEW he'd done the deed---which i find fowl anyway, nevermind when me and his son were in the room opposite!!)
"or tell me the truth and we'll work through things!" so he EVENTUALLY after a full hour of arguing admitted to jacking off in the snk
bleurrrrrgh!!! i was nearly sick!!!
maybe some women fnd this ok, but my OH hs always sed hes not bothered about that kinda thing, "why would he when he has me" etc etc
so anyway i split up with him and left him to stew whilst i went down to my mums...still there now. but truly stumped on what to do...as deep down obviously i still love him and want to be with him, and as a family... BUT its the lies...he cant be trusted with his son, as he sometimes loses his rag and swears at him, and he is very heavy handed with him.
please can someone give me some advice, and clear my mind of feelin like this is all my fault...
ps i punched him 3 times in the stomach and slapped him once...i lost my rag when he'd told me i was crazy, nd he made me re-think what i'd seen, then he admitted it! GRRRR
so angry!!!!
oh, also i txt him asking him why he cudnt wait for sex (i have a bad infection and v sore, cut and bleeding down below!) and he said back "cos i'm ony human!!"
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, my heart says go back with him, but my head says noooo stay the fcuk away!!
help please
i feel broken.
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