boo. i bribed my mother into staying yesterday but noone tonight, i really hate it i never sleep so feel awful cos i need to look after eli all day while hubby sleeps. god i really have spent this week whining havent i? haha. i feel so unsettled here on my own, i feel so ronery!

I can't sleep if oh isn't there, I don't even know why becuause I don't feel scared or anything I just can't drift off

I'm the same if hubby is away for the night I sleep on his side of the bed so I can smell his smell on the pillow but not having, or feeling his body next me just un nerves me, I can't settle and every bang or bump I think it's an axe murder trying to get in LOL (I sound so pathetic don't I?)

When I lived on my own I was ok, I got used to it but he's been living with me now for 3 years (been together for 4, married for 2) When I lived in my old place I got so scared being on my own one night when he was away I got into MJ's bed and snuggled into her lol xxxx

haha i cant quite fit into eli's cot maybe in a couple of years! i was the same, fine when i lived on my own for years, but once you get used to someone being around its harder isnt it! people seem to stomp around here all night and every little noise wakes me up

i wud hate it!! i get bored with no one to pester!!

i hate it when ians at work at night time i dont sleep at all i sit in bed watching films and every noise i hear i jump at

im sure it bothers eli too (or me being a maniac does haha) cos he has been up til 2, 3 and 4am while daddys been at work!

i have Arwyn in the bed with me when Daddy is working nights, makes me feel a bit better. but i usually sleep better when he's not here i just hate it when he's sleeping during the day when we're both up

Think i would hate it too x
If oh stays up and i go to bed after a certain i wake up and feel wierd lol xx