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I had a lovely holiday in England, even survived the 11 hour flight with a toddler who refused to sleep, a mental biatch in the seat in front of me who kept hissing at Milo to shut up - totally lost it with her which was fun! And it made her shut up!

Aaanyway, get home to Japan, and feel absolutely rubbish - sick, exhausted, can't get out of bed, didn't think much of it for a while, just thought i had a cold or something, but it got worse and worse. The last time i felt this bad was when I had morning sickness with Milo, so I did a preg test to rule that out, thinking it's definitely going to be BFN because - we rarely have sex , we're using protection, and my doctor said it was unlikely i'd be able to get pregnant on my own. So POAS, sit there watching it, first line comes up - right, thats the control line then, 2nd line comes up, right, so that's the..2nd control line?? I nearly fell off the loo!

My husband's reaction was the same as mine - shock, happiness, laughter - then "Wait, when did we have sex??" haha.

I'm over the moon!! I never imagine having two so close together, and I never thought i'd be able to get pregnant naturally, but i'm worried sick as well, as I've been taking my anti-depressants (until i found out of course), so worried that they've affected the baby somehow, worried that i'm imagining it!! Worried how i'm going to cope with two tiny people and moving country in the middle of a pregnancy.. Oh, and morning sickness and stinky toddler nappies are a nightmare combination! But also feeling like a very very lucky girl!!

I know it's still early days, so i'm trying not to get carried away, but i had to share with you BANDA ladies before I go mad!!