i am so proud of everything elijah is learning, and it is wonderful and i feel so privileged watching him grow into a little boy, and seeing him do new things every day, i am so grateful to have a healthy son and i love being his mummy.

but today as i watched him look more and more toddler-ish i had this overwhelming and gut-wrenching sadness like a little piece of grief that my little boy would never be a tiny baby again, he would never wear his tiny clothes, never sleep in my arms completely unaware of the world and would need me less and less. it felt as though my role as his mummy is to help him grow and develop, but to also help him separate from me. it feels as though he is growing too fast and i don't have time to enjoy everything - all of these new things happen so suddenly, and each one will never be new again. the amazing experiences that i have had for the first time over the past 9+ months will never happen again

maybe i'm hormonal or something but it just feels so sad sometimes, that these wonderful things are a little bittersweet for me

you're not alone, i've felt weepy this past week , I think its worse with her becoming one where has my baby gone!
I think i feel so bad because i know i won't have another so my baby days are well and truly over

Im looking forward to toddler times though (minus the tantrums)

i thought it wouldn't really hit me because i happily intend of having at least one baby, but it won't be him! i am really looking forward to him talking and seeing him have a bit of choice over what he does/where he goes is lovely, there just seems to be this little 'but' hanging over it just now, if i'm like this now how will i be when he turns 1, or starts nursery?!

is this some broodyness settling in lol X

i don't know, not really - i would like another baby but i really like the one i have! it just seems to be going so fast

I'm the opposite. The bigger and more independent Wil gets the more I like him.

The feeling you have about being his mum helping him to grow and develop and separate from you is what I thrive on. I want Wil to be independent and self-reliant because ultimately that's what he needs to be and that's what will make him happy as an adult.

i understand that and totally agree - i really believe the key to having a happy successful child is that they have confidence and independence, it just seems to be happening so fast!