want to wake up in the morning and find that today has just been a bad dream and that our amazing awla is still with us.

RIP Amazing Lady, you will be missed xxx

If only

I Wish

yeah i wish too...i really hope everyone manages to get some sleep tonight xxxx

if only x x

Yeh if only, i have finally let myself think about all this tonight and have had a good old cry. I know i wont sleep, i feel sick with it all, its such a waste of a wonderful person, no matter which way i turn it over in my mind, there is no reasoning, her family and friends have been robbed, its hard not to feel angry. I am finding it hard to express how i feel about all this, anger, frustration, sadness and total regret, in hindsight i am sure we would all have things we would have liked to have said to Laura and will never get the chance to. She had everything to live for and there is nothing to take comfort from, only a terrible sadness

I kept hoping to myself that it was one of laura's jokes but alas no... can't believe it.

thats what i was hoping too still cannot believe it xx

Jade wrote:

I kept hoping to myself that it was one of laura's jokes but alas no... can't believe it.

me too jade! I think the reality is just sinking in xx

Me more than any of you. I thought about her every minute of the day. I miss her x