I am in fluffing crap form today, which has not been helped by oh going out on the piss tonite with some guys from work. I should be used to it as its very rarely we spend both weekend nights together, it usually only happens when we are on hols.
He said if you don't want me to go out just say, then in the next breath I have sort of told these guys we are going out so basically what is the fluffing point in saying I won't go if you don't want me too.
I have sort of realised today that uni is pretty much out of the equation as there is fluff all funding for postgrads. I would have to give up work and with a mortgage, a loan and all the associated bills it doesn't look like it is going to be doable. I am feeling so down now as I feel like nothing is going my way at the mo, we are still trying for our bfp but at the mo that feels like its never going to happen.
I just feel like pulling the duvet over my head and waking up some time next year
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